My summer? It's been slow, boring... same old song and dance, y'know? People think they're changing and making it all swell and dandy for you but your reaction never changes and the world seems blind.

Yesterday I got my wisdom teeth pulled... about 4 people seemed even close to concerned for me... I'd say it was more like 3, but what do I know?

Anyway, I'd really like to thank my friends Bobby, Koeji, and Dayat for helping me hang in there. You guys really helped a lot and made me feel like someone actually cared for once in this long, hard year.

I'm not saying that anyone cared any less... in fact, a lot of people didn't know this was happening, but I don't like to be a suck up for attention (though I know I do it really often).

Anyway, Bobby told me everything I needed to know about getting them pulled and how hard this was going to be even while my brother and mom kept feeding me lies about how simple it would be.
I appreciate it, Bobby.
I'm happy you weren't one of the people who tried to calm me down by telling me it'd be painless. That's just... cheap. I got really pissed off at my mom for trying to comfort me with slander. Not to mention my anger towards her peaked at 5 AM. I told her she'd better not go to sleep while I'm suffering like this or I'd drag her down to hell with me.

Koeji let me know that she understands. She's actually the only one who called me all day yesterday and it was almost immediately after my surgery which pleased me greatly. She never even needed to be told that I was lonely or that no one had tried to sympathize with me... she just called me up and talked to me for a while. It made me really happy, so thank you. I probably would have just been a mess without that.

Afterwards, Dayat stuck with me and told me how to take care of myself now that the surgery had been done for a few hours. I DEFINITELY needed that. I don't even know what to say... but she definitely calmed me down. Thanks a bunch.

I love you all
I'm glad everyone reads what I say... and comments. It's good to have conversation with all of you even though I'm usually whining.

Take care everyone. Thanks for dealing with me.